Hate
Song: lostprophets_Rooftops....i felt like i was dying inside
It has been such a long time since i last wrote, and i am sad to say that absolutely NOTHING has changed. In about a week my parents are going to go to Poland cuz my dad is attending a conference, and my siblings and i will be shipped off to Makkah were we will spend our time in an all day sauna (my grandmother's house). I am not looking forward to this at all, i have absolutely nothing in common with my father's side of the family...their all a bunch of nutters, well at least the women are. I don't know what i did to offend them because they really seem to dislike me, not that i care, i used to, but i am over it now. I don't know why but i have become really mean lately. Meaner than usual, anyway. i don't like feeling like this, i want to be nice to people, i WANT to believe that the world doesn't actually suck and that we can all get along....
I've never really truly hated anyone, and by that i mean a race or a group of people, so it surprised me when just the other day i was online and i clicked on this article (something like: earth is another planets hell) it was all about israel/palestine/lebanon. I just read the comments people wrote and for the first time it struck me how much people hate us (Arabs Muslims)
I mean obviously when it comes to issues like Palestine and the war in Lebanon i am on the Arabs side of the debate, but never in my entire life have i said or even felt intense hatred towards the Israelis or Jews. Anyway some of the comments people posted were so cruel. I've never read anything so mean and hateful toward my race, and i wanted to cry just reading them.
As much as i complain about my life and as depressed as i am, i have to thank god for shielding me from this intense hatred. When 9/11 happened we were living in Ames, Iowa and although we would get looks no one ever went so far as to physically harass us. However we had friends in Ohio, who were being publicly ridiculed in Ohio. i never realized how lucky we were to be away from that.
I mean i am cynical now, imagine what i would have been like had i lived through that.
Okay i really went on a huge tangent. I never meant to write about all that, but it was bothering me all week.
It has been such a long time since i last wrote, and i am sad to say that absolutely NOTHING has changed. In about a week my parents are going to go to Poland cuz my dad is attending a conference, and my siblings and i will be shipped off to Makkah were we will spend our time in an all day sauna (my grandmother's house). I am not looking forward to this at all, i have absolutely nothing in common with my father's side of the family...their all a bunch of nutters, well at least the women are. I don't know what i did to offend them because they really seem to dislike me, not that i care, i used to, but i am over it now. I don't know why but i have become really mean lately. Meaner than usual, anyway. i don't like feeling like this, i want to be nice to people, i WANT to believe that the world doesn't actually suck and that we can all get along....
I've never really truly hated anyone, and by that i mean a race or a group of people, so it surprised me when just the other day i was online and i clicked on this article (something like: earth is another planets hell) it was all about israel/palestine/lebanon. I just read the comments people wrote and for the first time it struck me how much people hate us (Arabs Muslims)
I mean obviously when it comes to issues like Palestine and the war in Lebanon i am on the Arabs side of the debate, but never in my entire life have i said or even felt intense hatred towards the Israelis or Jews. Anyway some of the comments people posted were so cruel. I've never read anything so mean and hateful toward my race, and i wanted to cry just reading them.
As much as i complain about my life and as depressed as i am, i have to thank god for shielding me from this intense hatred. When 9/11 happened we were living in Ames, Iowa and although we would get looks no one ever went so far as to physically harass us. However we had friends in Ohio, who were being publicly ridiculed in Ohio. i never realized how lucky we were to be away from that.
I mean i am cynical now, imagine what i would have been like had i lived through that.
Okay i really went on a huge tangent. I never meant to write about all that, but it was bothering me all week.
posted by Asabi3 at 7:43 PM
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